I really haven’t made an intentional break from blogging, but I’ll admit it has been nice. While I have never considered myself to be much of an expert – I have always enjoyed the process of blogging, helping me flesh out ideas and thoughts. Nonetheless, it is quite possible I will pick back up my regular routine – but equally as plausible that I will simply enjoy ministry and family too much to invest too much time into updating. Either way, here are a few words for tonight:
When you serve in ministry, you often hear people refer to what they do as ‘my’ ministry. It’s not an incorrect form of ownership and responsibility; but I’ve become more and more disheartened by the lack of interest in doing what God has called us to do as pastors. The very word itself is expressed with the intention of being ‘Shepherds”. I haven’t known that many shepherds in my life, but I imagine it is not exactly how we like to picture them.
For some reason, many of us picture David sitting under a tree in a clean robe playing his harp with his hair flowing with the wind. As I said, I haven’t been around too many shepherds, but I have seen sheep. They are commonly referred to as dumb animals; but beyond their incompetence, they are also nasty. Being a shepherd isn’t clean, neat and easy. In fact, it seems quite the opposite. Not only that, most shepherds are hired help — in other words, it’s not their sheep that they’re watching.
This may be why I have a distaste for the ownership in ministry. It is quite an honor to be a pastor, but it is also easy to get lost in whom it is we are serving. Typically speaking, our tendency is to either place ourselves or the ones we serve as the primary recipient of our interest.
It seems what we miss is that when God has called us into a vocational ministry to pastor, He has called us to HIS ministry. It’s no longer “MY” anything, and it is certainly not someone else’s ministry. Ultimately, my primary responsibility is not to my own idealism or innovation – but in my surrender to following through with WHATEVER God has asked of me.
This is something I am still learning, but I love that God is not through with me yet! I can’t wait to see how He will teach me more about what it takes to surrender my goals to His own.